Saturday, February 27, 2010

Lovely Bows!

Want a cute new gift for your daughter, niece, grand-daughter, or friend? Check out these adorable bows made by my very good friend, Jamee!

Thursday, February 25, 2010


Laser peel
Face rejuvenation
Eye lift
Tummy tuck
Skin peel
Die your hair
Pluck those brows
Tighten that top
Iron those jeans
Higher heels then before
Wrinkles and white hair

Dry skin
Rolls of your stomach
Embrace it or shame it
Feel it or hide it

If they didn’t tell you how to feel, you would feel good
You would see yourself as you
Your spirit, engulfed in a body form
A body you should be kind to
Smile and enjoy it
Live through your heart not through your shallow eyes

He looks more handsome with age
She must be fake, and hide, runaway

I understand; be healthy, exercise, be fit
But indulge from time to time
Embrace the body you were given
Do not judge others strictly for how they look

Not in this house, in this house you can be fully you
You can look how you feel without being judged
You can eat some fries without feeling guilty
You can run around the block and gain strength within yourself
But it has nothing to do with the faces you meet throughout the day
The bodies that stumble across your page
Walking lightly, feeling empty and confused

After 27 years I have finally come to a place where I accept my body
I don’t always love it, but I accept it and let it be what it needs to be
I feel my skin jiggle as I jump rope, that’s okay
I see the lines in my cheeks from years of laughter and I smile
I have the proof of my enjoyment of life in the mirror

My hands get dry when the weather is cold
I am grateful for the ability to work with my hands
To get a few cuts and scrapes here and there
That’s my body, doing work
Nothing on my body is fake
No extensions
No implants

You do not have to live by the ways of the plastics
You do not have to change yourself in any way
Try to be more real
To think that your clothes define you is ludicrous
You fear the natural sense of the very earth that brought you here

Surround yourself with class
Push yourself towards etiquette
Surgery will fix you
They will accept you once you change

Mark my skin
Change my hair line
Tighten my folds
Shot in the head
Drugs in my body
Mark up my skin

Hammer rock my nose
You get that little tuck
And it makes you feel better about yourself
You think it’s more external than internal, really?!

If your mind was set then you would accept your body!
Your justifications never end
You will either start to love or run out of money

Which will you chose?

A client.

A teenager trying to raise two more
She was hurt then and they’ve been hurt before

The hypocrisy runs rampant
And the bigotry goes wild

They refuse your solutions
They sulk in their sadness
Never learning
Never changing
Never growing

It’s not your fault, you say?
Your child is no longer your responsibility, why?

The courts have to get involved in order for you to care
About your child’s education

Gratitude falls short
You attach to meaningless details
The money you make you spend like a child
Your future will only look like yesterday
Because you refuse to do anything different

A teenager trying to raise two more
You were hurt then and now you’ve hurt them more

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Thursday, February 11, 2010

An afternoon off and spent...

in a auto body shop! I sat for three hours waiting to have two, yes, just two tires replaced. They had to order the tires but I gave them 45 minutes to make that thirty minute trip. After an hour my car finally moved from out of the parking lot to into the shop. About forty minutes later they informed me that they can't help with the other problem I am having (my fifth gear pops out of place) apparently it could be the transmission, clutch, or both. Awesome. Great, that's fine I get they can't fix that, let's just stick with the original idea and put the new shiny tires on the front, please. Thirty minutes later they tell me the guy who picks up the tires happened to pick up the wrong kind. Finally a few minutes to six, when they place is supposed to close, the lady at the register offers me a free oil change for my time because "that should not have taken that long" she said. I thank her and make a mental note that the only way you would ever get me back in this shop is for something free, however I am not too pumped about it. Why, you ask? There were only a total of four customers during my three hour stay and one of the other guys there also got a free oil change for his time. Because they had just fixed an axle on his car and today he was towed to the shop because the axle wasn't put on properly.

Now this guy was very forgiving to the shop and began to tell me that this place has messed up his car several times. I asked why he keeps coming back and he said "well, I don't know anything about cars, and the guys here always seem genuine about messing up..." So I thought this was an interesting statement. I once had a doctor that was very nice and always seemed to remember who I was and I appreciated this about him. However one day I went to him with serious questions about my restless legs and he did nothing and appeared to not even care. This could be for a number of reason, he may have been having a really long day and was busy, or he may have not taken me seriously because I had never complained of anything before. Another time I saw a doctor who was not personable at all and very cold, yet I knew very quickly that he was smart and knew his stuff. My point? As much as I appreciate a good attitude and kindness, I also enjoy quality service. I noticed in one of the newspaper clippings that was hanging up in the auto body shop had quoted the owner saying "If we don't fix your car right, bring it back in and we'll fix it..." Hmmm... this just left me feeling like they were leaving too much room to mess it up, when they could just fix it right the first time?

Short story long, despite the very loud and annoying customers that are generally in the lobby, I happened to sit next to a guy my age who was very nice (the guy with the axle problem). He happened to notice my wedding ring (very few men do that) however he has been on the look out as he is about to propose to his long time girlfriend as soon as he finds a ring that suits her. I was happy to gush about where we found the ring and how much I love it. This guy said his girlfriend is "artsy and kind of a hippie" which always makes me laugh and right then I knew she and I would have several things in common. All because she would like a ring like mine. It's an odd philosophy but it's the same when I think of a t.v. show that I never watch, if I meet someone who LOVES it, I can almost guarantee that that person and I will have little in common. Here's the Kevin Bacon map to my theory; this guy's girlfriend would like my ring... she's a writer... they both love Colorado... Sarah Palin came on the t.v. in front of us and we both sighed as if we were just dying for her image to go away... in conclusion; artist. fun. likes nature. and open-minded. All over a ring. Another example albeit a short one; a person I work with loves the show Fraiser and we can barely have a conversation because our sense of humor is so very different, leading to our interests and things we like to spend our time on are so very different.

Even though my car will need some more work done in the next few weeks I am happy to have the new tires in place. It's also nice to meet a nice person in an impatient place. Especially when other people won't even make eye contact or they say really rude things loudly in order to draw attention to themselves. Oh, I also spent twenty minutes watching Oprah next to a woman who kept sighing every time the transgendered woman would try to explain her very complicated situation. I just wanted to lean over to her and say "It's okay. It's not you. Just because she is different you don't have to not like her." This woman seemed very upset by this persons' situation and I just felt compelled to try and understand her.

And then I see yet another video of someone getting beat up and bystanders doing just that. Standing there! While the kid gets beat up! What is that? Can we at least pretend to act like the rest of exist and live together? And better yet act like it's okay to be who we all are even if you don't understand it.

Woah I just wrapped up a whole lot of random into one blog, that'll do pig... that'll do.

Friday, February 5, 2010

but wait, there's more!

Ellie LOVES the snow... Jaxon usually just watches her freak out around the yard and then he eventually joins in the fun. Even though the roads aren't great, and the yard (and dogs) get muddy all over again.... I had fun watching the dogs enjoy their play time and the snow was coming down so hard, and still is!

More Snow!

It started snowing again early this morning and they say we should get a few inches. It looks pretty and makes me want to stay inside. I really don't mind the snow, however it makes me feel like Spring is really far away and that's not great... oh well, maybe we can actually get out sledding if it keeps snowing and that would make it worth it. Drive safely!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

what the what?!

so i find myself sitting in front of the t.v. watching a show i dvr'd... yes i took four seconds out of my life to tape some pretty bad shows. most of them, scratch that... all of them are "reality shows". why do i waste my time with them you ask? first of all, i think most people have spent an hour or two of their lives watching a show that they do NOT like yet you are fascinated by it and it becomes hard to change the channel, right? for instance, right now i am watching 'millionaire matchmaker' which is full of superficial money driven dating scene from l.a. gross, right? also, i tape the two hour bachelor, which god help the producer and director or whoever it is that drags that 40 minute show into two hours!! but seriously, i tape it, and fast forward almost the entire thing. for some reason i just want to see who ends up in the end, and then they will just break up, like matt always tries to inform me. do i have a small hope that they will actually 'make it' as couple? no, not really. truly i could care less... i mean i would prefer people were happy and in a healthy relationship but if they weren't meant to be then who cares?
i feel a little embarassed admitting to some of the shows i watch, and god bless matthew he would never try to rat me out regardless how much he can't even stay in the room without sighing when one of the shows is on. he was at work telling a co-worker that his wife occassionally tunes in to the bachelor and his co-worker said "what?! she watches that?! she (meaning me, i guess) is the 'cream of the crop' why does she watch that?!" so i couldn't decide if i liked being called the cream of the crop exactly just because it just made me think of corn and it was weird... but at first that's a compliment, right? then i realize ohh... but i DO watch that, so now what?
here's what... i admit to a few 'guilty pleasures' in life that i feel help keep me sane. true my husband, my family, my good friends, and nature keep me 98% sane, but for some long days full of too much reality and sometimes too much negative things... that other 2% is covered by reality shows. for you it might be chocolate, or coffee, sports, videogames, talking, whatev. i will say that unless you are hurting yourself or others i will not judge whatever you do to keep sane. because i think life is unbelievable and i am continually shocked at the beautiful things i see every other day. however there are those days that i feel a bit overwhelmed by the sadness and hate that still exists in this world, most days we just don't see it but it's there.
i hope to continue to stay positive and hopeful and i hope you do as well, because the more of us moving in a positive direction the better.

just so you know one of the 'better' reality shows that i watch... "little people, big world". it's great to see how other people live and the challenges they go through yet at the core we are all so much more similar than we are different.