oh, deer

yesterday i was out with one of the girls i mentor (they call them mentees but that just sounds like a breath mint to me, so i'm trying to come up with a new name) and we were driving back to her house along this long windy road.  an area where we often see deer and turkeys.  suddenly she asked me, "do deers live under ground?" and sadly, i had to pause and think about it.... i knew they didn't but i questioned "where DO they live?" so i responded "no... they live on ground, above ground... in.... fields... by, leaves, and trees.  they kind of just hang out in fields, and probably sleep near other deers.. by trees... and grass." 

first day of stress

yesterday was a fun day spent mostly playing outside in lawrence with my mom, sister, and nephew.  but it was also a day where i first felt the stress of planning a wedding that most people talk about.  it was short lived, and when i remember to keep things in perspective, not a big deal. but it is interesting the things you come across when planning a wedding.  so much preparation for one day. granted, it deserves all the time spent but at the end of the day it should be a great time for the bride and groom.  a time of the most celebration with the people you want to celebrate with.  i know that you can't please everyone.  i also know it is most important to stick with what matt and i want and envision for this day. 

kestan and i went to the park this morning, we walked than he fell asleep in the stroller so i layed on a park bench for over and hour.  i worked through our guest list, and read a book, and than i just layed there staring up at the trees and feeling the warm sun on my skin and the breeze in my hair.  i needed that nothingness, which was also something.  i have to remind myself that i can just be, i don't always have to be reading, drawing, watching, moving, it's a good time to attempt to quiet my thoughts.  

driving home with the windows down, the idea of eating the rest of my turkey sandwich was not appealing.  i went to a great mexican restaurant and bought chicken fajitas for my lunch. it was a nice treat. 

heyo

hi! things have been very busy, but very fun. i have been gone from the house for 14 hours a day (not every day but a few times) and people that have to or chose to do that all the time... i just couldn't do it. i miss matt, i miss our dogs, i miss being at home. but if i had to pick a busy to be, this is the one i would pick. hanging with my nephew all day, softball practice, team dinners, a girls basketball game, being outside, field trips, spending time as a mentor, and eventually relaxing.  this kind of weather fills my soul, i love it. although i have officially started wearing sunscreen. awesome. today we are going to see my mom, and then my dad and shannon. i had to borrow this picture from shannon.. kestan a little while ago playing in the leaves. 

i had a dream i met tina fey

30 rock, anyone?  matt and i think it is if not the best at least top three best shows ever. the jokes are quick witted like i've never seen, relevant, and smart. i think it would be a dream to write for that show, let alone be on it.  i dreamt last night, very vividly that i was at the oscars and i won some fan thing and i met oprah, tina fey and steve martin.  and no matter how cool and casual i wanted to seem, i just kept thinking of stupid things that i am sure they had heard a hundred times before. thankfully it was just a dream, i'm sure i'd be much more suave in real life. no, i wouldn't.

matt and i are going to see louis c.k. tonight, he is a very funny, kind of angry comedian.  we haven't been to a show in years and it will be so fun to sit front row and just laugh.

i have been trying to think of fun wedding stuff, felted flowers for center pieces (hasn't worked out too well yet), some funky cupcake recipes, and overall decorations.  did i mention how excited i am about all of it? for reals.  bye! 

update

hey yo. it's been too long. sometimes i think maybe i don't have anything interesting to say, but than again, maybe i do.  this month has flown by!  next week i start my new schedule of watching my nephew 4 days a week, coaching softball every day, and seeing two mentee's (the girls i see once a week each being a mentor).  it will be very busy, but very fun.  i have no health insurance, but i don't really mind it.  i have variety (which i love) and i really enjoy each one of my jobs and will hopefully help someone along the way, and that is all that really matters.  i am so very grateful for each of the opportunities i have chosen to take.  i know watching kestan helps my sister and brother-in-law out a lot, and i know that i am lucky to have the chance to do it. thank goodness it's springtime... we've got field trip plans like you wouldn't believe. :) i will be coaching jv this year and know it will be a great season. the two girls i see grew up similarly in a very negative environment with lots of abuse an no boundaries, yet they are very different. one is reserved, hard to read, indifferent, and the other is talkative, polite, and she walks even faster than i do.  i am trying to live in between and during all of the working and so far so good.  

babysitting k-man

Yesterday my amazing fiancee came with me to babysit our nephew Kestan while his mom and dad got the chance to spend all day out celebrating their 6 year anniversary. It's the easiest babysitting gig around, but it just made it way more fun having Matthew with us. We went to the park and he was passed out in the stroller by the time we left. Kestan had fun in the bath tub as I styled his hair, and afterwards he cuddled with Uncle Matt on the couch.

birthday dinner

Friday night we spent at my mom's house with the fam. Mom made a delicious pasta meal (twenty mile pasta- bow tie pasta, pine nuts, sun dried tomatoes, lemon juice, garlic, olive oil, artichoke hearts, and red pepper flakes - DElicious), with a yummy salad and warm bread. Kestan was in his high chair practicing throwing food on the floor and saying "ah oh". We had some intense, very fun games of ping pong. And my brother bought me the biggest balloons I have ever seen. It was a very fun night!